"Transgender people are obviously different. Throughout their lives they have to work their way into their cocoon to become a butterfly. Growing up, I think my mom knew something was up with me. I would put on covers sheets like they were dresses and I would act like my favorite Disney princesses. However, I didn't realize I was different until primary school where I was bullied badly. Understanding that you stand out and receiving negative energy makes you think that who you are is wrong.
There were big signs that I was transgender. I would always be jealous of my sister, which made us very distant, and I would refuse to cut my hair short. One of the most life-changing moments happened on my 11th birthday. That day I asked for a wig, and when I saw myself in the mirror, I thought: "why am I not as pretty as my friends?” After my birthday, I thought that my hopes and dreams of being who I really am were over. Shortly after that, my dear grandmother who I loved and who taught me the most about everything that I know about art today, passed away.
High school arrived where I was bullied and suffered depression. One day, I came back from school and I had enough with the bullying. I swallowed a bunch of silica gel that I had kept from every pair of shoes we bought. Nothing happened except a bit of pain in my stomach that passed. But I never told my parents.
A year later, my dad got the internet for our house. We never had it before because where we lived, Wi-Fi was very expensive. Thanks to the internet, I discovered the word transgender. I did research and found people like me! It gave me so much hope. Because of my growing hope, I finally came out as a transgender to my mom. She was very supportive and the rest of my family was equally as accepting and loving.
And now, look at me today. I am on blockers and hormones and I finally know the meaning of happiness: being myself. I'm so grateful for the support of my family and I hope they know that. Since that day, I started using painting, makeup, and other forms of art to channel all that pain away and make good use of it.
My goal in life is to help others who suffer from the torment of society. I want to spread the word that being different and "weird" is the future."